I want to be dangerous – it appeals to me, the danger in being dangerous. It excites me. I want to be at the edge of power – I deserve it, the weight of the universe on my shoulders. It is my curse, my bane and my guiltiest pleasure. I want to be unattainable – out of reach, like stars, looking down upon tranquility.

But it is not my nature – just my desire.



I always dream the world will change for the better one day. I hope that the better side of our human spirit will win out. If everything is cause and effect, an ebb and flow of good and bad, lies and truths – push and pull – the day of redemption must come sooner than I can imagine.  It falls upon us to progress despite hardship and suffering; to be unrelenting in moving towards universal peace and equality. As many before us have done, with each brave soldier in a field of hatred and every shy boy coming out to his world, we pave the way to a dream – a world full of love and free of prejudice.

It falls upon us.

Happy Pride!


Cancer and Capitalism


Cells beget tissues, which beget organs and bodies – bodies beget families and countries, societies full of rules and religiosities. They all exist within one another – and just as a cancerous cell can kill a body, a cancer within the social organism can upend society. Capitalism has become one such cancer.

Much like with its predecessors, our strict adherence to this ideology has disturbed the balance of living. Capitalism focuses on generating profit by maximizing the earning potential of one’s resources; it is an economic system where individuals, rather than governments, control trade and industry for profit.

While this mindset exalts individuality, it neglects the community within which individuals exist. It has no instruction on how to operate within existing social systems; it exists in an ideological vacuum. An excessive, uncontrolled growth of this phenomenon, therefore, hinders community growth.

So just like a cancer within our bodies, capitalism has ravaged our planet. In the name of ‘free market’ it has exploited every natural resource, siphoning the cream for a select few who either have foundational or intellectual advantages unlike most.

It is a matter of fact that not all human beings have the mental faculty or equal access to resources needed to thrive in this individualized economy. This unequal playing field means not everyone benefits from capitalism. Quite conversely, in this system, as the rich few get richer, communities get poorer.

Perhaps if a system were created that valued each human being equally, regardless of ‘net worth,’ it would change the world for the better. For example, do away with standardized monetary systems and the concept of debt – replace it with barter systems that value time, labor, skill and commodity.

Maybe then we would have the right amount of lawyers and gardeners, doctors and teachers; maybe then we wouldn’t have to say “I always wanted to be a writer but I need money to live…so I became an underwriter…or decided to be a writer and starve.”


Clearly, I am not an economist; I just refuse to accept that there isn’t a more egalitarian way to do business.